Going tantric again

A bit more than a month ago I wrote about a tantric seminar that I went to and how amazing I thought it was. I came close to and felt real love and acceptance for others (people I barely knew) and came closer to myself. And I wanted to get involved more with tantra. So last weekend I was at a 2 day tantric seminar in a eco-hotel in the Brazilian mountains.

It was a great and joyful weekend but my expectations were maybe a bit too high. I kept being in my head instead of just letting go. Sounds like such a small thing to do, but I know that it is probably the biggest challenge of mankind; letting go, surrendering, accepting that really is. Because when you do, you surrender your ego, you don’t have anything more to have an opinion about, to think about, to say what’s important and what’s not, what should be. I do realize that I, like most of us, lead my life and perceive reality mostly based on what’s not here (and should be according to my ego), what I think reality was in the past, what I think reality will be, what I made up to be important, etc. So as long as I allow identification with my mental and emotional concepts about me and about life I will live a reasonably (un)happy life.

Thankfully I have those moments of deep joy, a feeling of meeting with truth and all including love. They show me the direction, and it is always there if I let it be. That is what tantra is about, discovering the beauty of everybody (every man, every woman) right here and now. Learn to love here and now, not talking about it and contemplating (just another mindgame), but really doing it. For me that´s much more effective, I bet it´s the same for you.

Big hug from a distant, unknown friend,
Luca